Tennessee QB Brian Maurer Reveals Extreme Lengths of Battle With Depression in Emotional Instagram Post

Tennessee Volunteers QB Brian Maurer
Tennessee Volunteers QB Brian Maurer /

As inspiring as it can be to watch our favorite athletes to do battle on the gridiron, it often results in an internal strife under the surface that impacts them more than most.

Tennessee QB Brian Maurer has spent most of his life in the spotlight, from his time as a highly-touted QB recruit from Florida to competing for the Vols starting job. There's nowhere to hide, and that led him to a dark place that very few of us can understand.

In honor of Mental Health Awareness Month, Maurer shared his journey, which very nearly had a tragic ending.

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In honor of may being mental health month I’m encouraging everyone to seek help but also to speak up and to share their stories, here’s my story since the 7th grade i have struggled with anxiety and depression this battle has been long and hard it has been an everyday battle , In the 7th grade my father was sentenced to 25 years in prison, around the same time my mom and stepdad split up causing me to have to grow up early In the 9th grade me and my mom decided it would be best if i moved in with my grandmother while she moved for a little bit causing even more depression as i was no longer with my mom and my younger sister Junior year of highschool one of my best friends committed suicide and i had never felt so low in my entire life one as of the strongest people i have ever know lost his battle . Dewayne ALWAYS had a smile on his face and was always telling me i was gonna be something great. At this point i knew i was in trouble but i still refused hell from anyone Senior year of highschool I lost 2 friends to gun violence i slipped even deeper into a black hole and I turned to everything else but seeking help I was embarrassed to be like this , I always thought that as a guy i had to have tough skin and not to let anything bother me I thought i needed to stay strong for my family and that they couldn’t see me down and that I was their shoulder to cry on. I always thought i needed to be the shoulder for people to cry on when deep down i was screaming for help On Wednesday January 22 , 2020 i planned to take my own life , i though i lost my battle with depression and that my pain had come to an end as i was going to do it i looked up and i said “god if this isn’t your plan for me please send me a sign” 2 minutes later my mom called me with my baby nephew Jeremiah and she said she was just calling to say she loved me , i then knew that by ending my pain i would be causing so much more to the people who loved me. Please reach out to receive help, mental health is a very serious matter and there is hope for you ! I along with everyone around you stand with you, you have the strength to deal with this. Please keep fighting you got this . #longlivewayne?

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Maurer had planned on taking his life in January of this year, but was saved by an impromptu phone call from his mom and two-year-old nephew. While Maurer's mind was cleared in this instance, his struggle with depression and anxiety is ongoing.

The 19-year-old has since gotten help, and he took this opportunity to remind all his fans that they should do the same, rather than entertain other ways out.

Maurer, along with Kevin Love and other high-profile athletes, has become the face of mental health in sports. Such a topic would've been deemed impossible to discuss even a decade ago, but thankfully, due to the work of professionals (including sports psychologists), it's a conversation no athlete must keep behind closed doors.

We wish Maurer nothing but the best in his ongoing fight.